One sentence: Dragan meets Twilight.

It's really rather poor, but it amuses me and placates Drag's need for attention (ATTENTION, ATTENTION, ATTTTTTTTTTTTEEEEEEEENTION!!!).

EDIT: I might be getting my regular red color back finally, because my hair's lately been this funky concoction of really dark brown, black, red, light right, blond... Good lord, I have rainbow hair. Anyway, I think I might just hug my hair when it's back to my bottle-red. I've missed it, I don't feel like myself without my bottle-red. I've learned my lesson, no more black, and lightening shampoos (and conditioners occassionally) just cause my hair to go from black to blonde. And then I'm getting my bangs back, I have almost no bangs now, and what I do have pokes me directly in the eyeball and it's quite bothersome.

  Watching Push right now, the thing has a lot of potential but, I'm not sure it's going to live up to what it's built for itself. It could be all kinds of awesome. Anyway I went to the library today, and I got to talk to Misa for a bit and I guess I'm gonna catch up with her and Judith on registration day. I got a couple of books, and crap and did other errands and shit.

   To be quite honest, I'm writing this entry because I feel like I need something TO DO.

   That could be the restlessness I'm getting from not being able to write or at least insisting on silencing the others that want to be written. Which so far isn't working so well. Candy and Gabriel insist that I properly introduce them, and it just can't be a whole Candy meet Gabe, Gabe meet Candy, nope they have to have this whole drawn out meeting. I would rather keep it like they met in NANO.

   Ugh Push is one big failboat.

    Anyway, I haven't really continued writing Thin, which really is making it harder for me to reach my goal for the remainder of this week and next week. I've met a bit of block in my planning, because I don't want Mama to die right away but I don't want her to be a very developed character. Frances is a big road block when I write because I'm going headfirst into her illness without having it be something specific. The most I came up with was a little manic depressive with some slight schizophrenia. Her schizophrenia becomes worse during her lows, and when she won't take her medicine. Initially I wanted Tillie to have something similar, but now I believe that Tillie is sane just more or less a child because of Mama. Mama/Frances -I'm too deep in the habit of calling her Mama but it causes a conflict for me to call her and Val's girlfriend-esque type thing both Mama- kind of made Tillie the unwilling adult thus keeping her forever a child. I feel really pretentious analyzing my own character's- at least somewhere where someone else can read it- but it helps. Tillie wants to be her mother, she wants to be insane more or less because she doesn't want to live with the feeling of abandonment that she's always had. So she gets hooked on Gaia for that specific purpose that it makes most everyone that takes it a little less sane.

    Thin is one of my big projects I think, I believe it'll prolly be the only thing I'll treat like this for a while.

    And I feel pretentious again.

    Yep, PUSH is one big failboat because it doesn't explain much it just sort of expects the person watching it to not question it's plot holes (it's about as holey as swiss cheese). It also drags on for an action movie. And let's face it, the 'powers' or whatever they are have the lamest names, MOVERS: move things with their minds, Watchers: can see the future, Shadows: hide people and/or things, PUSHERS: get into your mind and make do or believe things. I would put Bleeders on the list too if it weren't for the fact that they are so bloody awesome. Bleeders scream, not only do they scream but they rip you apart. There's this particularly awesome scene where they're after Nick and they're walking through a fish market and the fish are exploding in their tanks. They'd just be swimming along one minute and then the next it would be a big cloud of blood in the water. The bad thing about this movie is that I couldn't give a rat's ass about the main characters. I want to know more about Dakota Fanning's character and her incarcernated mother (who apparently planned all this, what?). I have a feeling that we're gonna get a... Yes, we got a cliff hanger. What happens? Will they find DF's mummy and save her? Why did DF's mummy plan all this? Why do I care? This movie had a good idea too bad it didn't go an interesting direction with it.

EDIT: It's probably in bad taste but every time I attempt to rewrite Aubree's overdose I listen to Frenzy by Screamin' Jay Hawkins:

   "Dig this crazy mood I'm in,
listen to my heart as it starts to spin.
Whish, when you kiss me, and do it again,
I'm in a Frenzy!!!

Watch my eyes, when you light them up,
Bling!
Listen to me whine, like a harpsichord.
When you touch me I warm right up,
I'm in a Frenzy!!!"

And something about the Animals Are Behind Bars by Circus Contraption makes me wish I had drawing skills so I could draw an Hippo with a lampshade on its head.

Also, I enjoy listening to "Dark Thing" by Johnny Hollow towards the end, as in the body dumping scene.
   

  I am having problems with Thin, which isn't anything new, but now my issues aren't with how to start it it's rather how to make the beginning sound nice and fluid instead of as stiff as it does at the moment.

  A snippet of the rigor mortis passage: 

            

 

"The dream was a memory, one of the few memories she had of Frances that made her smile. Tillie was six, she was confused, but happy. Mama had agreed to take to the park and although all the other children shied away from her, Tillie was happy. Frances was happy, she was beaming from her park bench, Louie and his girth beside her. Louie was reading the paper, his balding head shined in the early morning sun and Mama kept beaming like the smile was plastered on.

                It was a spontaneous idea, Tillie rarely ever went to the park and she rarely ever left the house. She’d been just at the age for school to interact with other children, but Louie’s overprotective mind had opted to home school. The park hadn’t been his idea.

                Suddenly Tillie was on the swingset, her long brown hair had kept catching on the chair and ripping out at the roots. When Tillie turned her head on one of the upswings Mama was still beaming at the bottom, silent tears streaming down her cheeks with hair tangled around her fingernails.

                Tillie woke up.

I'm leaning toward scrapping it and just going about it the previous way: have Frances kill herself straight-away. This is of course coupled with the fact that Val and my other chara called Mama have recently become alive again and that Candy's back, but I'm trying to IGNORE them which may be pretty friggin' hard at times. I keep on trying to put all other projects (or for my own amusement ventures) on hold for the span of Thin but good lord if they don't see that as some sort of challenge.

    
 Oh Good Lord No.I wanted to see if the actor who plays Dr. Cooper (aka: Coop the nervous-habit boob grabber) on Nurse Jackie was in any other movies or TV shows. And now I'm gonna have to refer to Carlisle as the compulsive-tit-grabber, because the damn actor is the  Soap-Opera-Esque-Doctor Carlisle Cullen.

 

 Myrnin from the Morganville Vampires series or Lestat either way I have a feeling it wouldn't be turning but being bled and dying. Ah but anything's better than sparkling I guess.

   I think I officially hate ipods, itunes the like. My itunes was corrupted so I attempted to remove the program. Shouldn't have done that. Now my ipod's frozen and won't install. If it becomes unfrozen when I plug it into the wall with an adapter later today then I just might cry like a baby.

I am tv whore. Now that that's out of the way, September is good month for me. Wanna know why? Dexter comes back, and its been since last summer ( I think) that the show's had a new season and September 27th is when the new season starts back up! 

  Secondly, Supernatural comes back on September.... 10th? 

  (Ok, so I'm prolly a little bit like an old lady with her Soap Operas)


  Also, on the topic of things that go on screens, I was going to post the trailer for Tim Burton's Alice in Wonderland the other day but Disney has ripped the trailer from every available source, but I got to watch it beforehand so it's all good for me. I think if Disney'll like have a website like most other movies do for it with the trailer on it I'll link to it here. Because the Cheshire Cat is adorable and it's got this whole child-like creepiness to it. Which makes me happy.

 (and also makes me expand my theory on the Mad Hatter's 'stained' fingers in the poster).

  "If you just don't graduate you could stay here forever"

   ^ My grandmother's completely serious comment to me about five seconds ago. She wants me to stay here and work for her. Work being that I do yard work for a total of 50 cents a day. Work being watching my great grandmother for five bucks every few weeks or so. I am not kidding. That is all my grandmother thinks I am capable of.

 "You shouldn't live at your own place, because it's hard work cleaning a house"
  
   What? WHAT? Excuse me? It's um not THAT hard, I mean if its just me, if its me and a roommate or something, I don't make much of a mess outside of my room and when pressed lightly I will clean it. Good lord, what am I capable of doing again? 

   Oh yes, 50 cent yard work and 5 dollar/4hr babysitting.

   Excuse me if I seem a bit pissed off.


  

   Was reallllllly uncomfortable, I don't do well if I'm a room with only one person I know in it. I take a while to warm up to people and I'm naturally quiet so people who WANT me to be really talkative aren't really going to get it. And when I'm uncomfortable my brains tends to lean toward the whole 'things you shouldn't say out loud" area.

    I swear if I blurted out every thought that came into my head I'd be known as the creep. Hell reading my writing is like peeking into my subconcious and we all know that leans toward the very bloody and awkward spaces.

        And there's no food to eat in this damn house. I found an old mini apple pie and had that for breakfast. I need to get money to get fooooood, dammit.

        Also, I love this band called Say Hi (formerly Say Hi to Your Mom but they shortened it on account of maturity I guess), the lead singer's voice is a mix of a sound I don't really enjoy but like anyway.

    Also I've been browsing around the hidden old threads on the original WB site, and I just realized how epic (and potentially annoying) Marissa and I were.

    The guy who plays Sam on True Blood is added to my list of actors I recognize and go "OMG it's _______!" and not many people will understand what the hell I'm talking about. 

   Note to self: life needed.

   So that cat that we decided to name Jiji, I think he's gonna end up being named Sweeney because he calms down when I listened to the ringtone that Don has sent me (Depp singing the "Sweeney's waiting part" from Sweeney Todd. So I think I'm gonna push for the cat to be named Sweeney Todd.

   This cat is adorable though, right now he's watching me type on my laptop and if he hears a noise on the other side of my laptop he'll climb up on it and look around the side. I'm afraid he's going to strike my screen though, he keeps on following the words I'm typing and crouching. He's a little pervert though I'm wearing a tank top and he keeps on pulling at the top of the tank (at the spot between my boobs) and popping his head into the space. 

    All that's forgiven though because he's adorable especially when he attacked my earphone earlier. I had one in my ear and another was lying on the couch and he attacked it because he heard the music.

    Ugh, need to find something better to talk about aside from cats.

    Going to Sophy's party later.

 I can make balloon animals which will impress small children. I did it for one of my little sister's birthday parties, I was the clown sans make-up and costume.